So here's the deal, my Canucks started playing the Minnesota Wild a few minutes ago, so I'm going to listen on CKNW 98, their Vancouver radio station, and write out some thoughts to steady my heart rate!
I have never been one to expose my personal struggles to the whole world, especially where the internet is concerned, but I feel the need to tell you about my recent events. I have been feeling restless in my life, as I've posted before, but I have not been sure what can be done about it. When I graduated from high school, I had a full plan for my post-secondary pursuits and goals. My friends may remember that I was going to go to Briercrest for 2 years then university for 4 years to obtain a Bachelor of Science in Nursing degree before I would think of getting married. Due to a series of circumstances, that didn't happen and now I am 26 and an Administrative Assistant in our church.
Earlier this month, Lee and I decided that if there was a part-time nursing program, I could register for some classes while still being able to work. A house mortgage kind of has a way of preventing full-time studies, you know? Well, here begins my stress. The school I would like to go to does not have a part-time option, but one other school does. The problem with this school is that the program goes over 3 years and is only an LPN level. This is not so much of a problem in that there are ways to upgrade from there, but my issue comes from my age. I know 26 is not old, but since I can't start until next January, I won't be finished until I'm 30!! This would be great and all, but my crisis is that I will be 31 or maybe even 32 before we can have our first child, and I'm not certain that this is the right path for me to take.
My mom and I were talking on the weekend and she was encouraging me to pray more for God's peace in this process, and so all last weekend I focused on getting my spiritual life back in line with God's plan for me and by the time Monday morning rolled around I did feel peace...finally. I'm still not certain that this is the perfect situation for me, but I have come to realize that in order for God to be able to give me direction, I have to take a step of faith so that He has something to work with. I've done my part to register and I will study and strive to do well, but a door can close or an "accident" can happen, so I'm just going to have to do my best and wait on God to lead me through this.
Anyway, the Canucks and Wild are tied 1-1 at the second intermission, so I'm going to listen to the rest of the game and unwind before bed.
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5 comments:
thanks so much for sharing what you are going through.
it is good to get started on your dream even if the end date seems so far off. Because if you dont start, you'll turn 30 and wonder why you hadn't done it when you could have been finished!
And yes, accidents do happen. ;) Course God planned for that child so it is one of those wonderful kind of accidents even if they seem overwhelming at first. Some days I just sit back and am amazed at how we get by without me working. Whatever situation God puts you in, there will be a way to get through it.
Hey Jana,
Thought I should comment on your blog, as you did on mine! Thanks. It has been a long time, hey? First of all....we won! 2-1. Too bad it was PPV. I did listen to some on the radio, and then kept up to date via the internet. Second, thanks for being honest and sharing about life. Way to go! Way to step in obedience to this open door that has been presented to you. It is scary, but I KNOW that God leads, and does open and close doors, and it is the best to walk in His will. And...of course I think nursing is wonderful! Can't wait to hear great stories.
Thank you for trusting us enough to share what you're going through.
I pray that God will lead you and that He will open and close doors at the right times.
Sometimes those "accidents" are the best things that can ever happen to you. :o) I should know :o)
Jan...
I am excited you are thinking and praying about pursuing what you've always wanted! IF this is what the Lord has for you then don't worry about the little details. He already has it ALL figured out...isn't that good to know?
Love ya!
Banana-J,
My own little "accident" is cooing ever so sweetly at the computer right now as she bounces around in her exersaucer. Let's just say I learned the very vivid way that God's plan always supercedes ours and its ALWAYS BETTER. I pray that He surprises you with how amazingly He is going to arrange your life!
Banana-L
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